- written about 8 years ago
I have not felt so lost for a while now. Here I am, exactly where I have dreamed of being for the entire length of my existence and yet the exuberance is nowhere in sight. I am beginning to feel that I have lost reason to be happy; neither is there any motivation to be sad. Lets see. For the last one year now, I've been studying at an US university which has been a childhood dream. I'm studying Mechanical Engineering which has also been a dream for as long as I can remember. Still, I just feel hollow as if there is nothing more to life. I guess I never thought much about what I wanted to do after to got to this point of my life. That is a possible explanation. Within the period of this one year, I learned 2 different languages which now makes six languages in my list, got to an US university, did well and earned a scholarship, met a beautiful girl, got in a relationship and then broke up recently. The breakup has been one of the most difficult incident in my life to deal with. This is where I am now and not sure where I'm going next. I think I'll be going home for a while, be with my family and try to find my way back into life. Contemplating on the things that I have done in the last 12 months, I guess it’s safe to say that there probably isn't much meaning to life. Perhaps, one can find something interesting to do while they are still alive.